September 2011
1 post
Bring on the doubt
I desperately need to be single for a little while. I have been relationships, with very little downtime, since I came to college. I need to be able to be selfish and make myself happy without worrying about how that decision will affect my significant other. And that’s fine. It’s fun. I can go on dates or let people buy me drinks without feeling guilty. The present is perfect....
July 2011
3 posts
I Was Supposed to be Prolific
That nagging voice in the back of mind
Oh not now, but once upon a time
Was the biggest obstacle I could find
And any hero I cared to name
Did it for the scars and stories
But never just for the fame
But life and time, oh they caught up
To all of my heroes and also to us
Gone are the days where I couldn’t sleep
Alone in my bed with secrets to keep
I would share my misery over the...
Maybe absence doesn’t make the heart grow fonder. Maybe absence fills your time with people with qualities you wish someone else had. Maybe it gives you more time to think about all the past wrongs and disappointments. Maybe it strengthens your conviction that you weren’t wrong. Maybe it makes it easier when he leaves instead of works it out.
I’m sure I’m just being...
“Never underestimate a girl’s love for her favorite band. Never think, even for a...”
– Alex Gaskarth (via simply-quotes)
May 2011
2 posts
Glutton for Punishment
Last night, I tried to add my sister-in-law on Facebook. It’s ridiculous to even call her my sister-in-law, because although I’ve always held a fondness for her, I very rarely ever call her husband, Bill, my half-brother, let alone my brother. In fact, last Thanksgiving, Rob’s family asked if I had any siblings. My answer was, “No.” Not, “Just a...
March 2011
1 post
February 2011
2 posts
Unlikely advice...
“I’m not picking sides, because I like both of you guys. But I want to say, and I know I haven’t known you that long, but I think that you’re an incredibly strong woman and I hate to see you get kicked around like this. It’s like seeing your dad get his ass kicked, you hate watching it.”
I hate it too. And I’m beginning to think that all of the times I...
December 2010
1 post
Only Butch Walker could put out a sexually...
October 2010
2 posts
I don't know why.
I don’t know why I can’t just be happy and trust that when someone says they will do something, they’ll do it on their own time. Have I gotten so used to taking care of people that I automatically assume their problems and they become my own, even when there’s no reason for it?
Maybe I should just be on my own.
September 2010
1 post
Is everybody in the goddamn world getting married...
Even unmotivated, apathetic, drug-addled pseudo-friends from the past are engaged. Jesus Christ.
August 2010
3 posts
“The world made me cold. You made me water. One day we’ll be clouds.”
– I Wrote This For You
Well this is odd...
My boss, Scott, is getting a divorce from his wife and jumped immediately into a new relationship. Yesterday, his daughter broke down in front of him and his girlfriend, Mary. They asked me to talk to her, so I went in the back. One of the dishwashers, Tiffany, beat me to it but we both calmed her down. She said it just wasn’t fair and she didn’t like Mary because her mom...
June 2010
1 post
Let's Get Fucked Up and Die...
I’m listening to Motion City Soundtrack and looking through pictures of years past. I miss the times when I was positive that Pete Wentz was the only person who really understood anything that I was going through. I miss the times when I was going through things instead of just trying to get by. I miss the times when I had the time to pretend I could chase my dreams.
August 2009
2 posts
You Never Forget Your First Time
There’s a voice at home in the back of my mind And I’ve erased from its vocabulary every word of doubt Except for when it comes to you And there’s a thought that sneaks up on me When I think about what the coming years might bring But I ignore it, it might be true Second might not always mean second best But that doesn’t make it hurt any less Just one thing could bring this...
You'll grow out of hanging from the edges...
I’m updating this because this is the closest to the park by your house I can get. I need someplace where only you can hear me because you never judge me. And I feel like I should be judged.
Nothing awful happened today. It was little things that all piled up on each other until I felt like breaking. And then I was driving home and I thought back to the day after Theresa (I’m so...